Mum's the word

I know it just may be a little too much after the last post but I can't help but vent out whats on my mind through this blog. I am really close to my mum and she is someone who has always understood me. She can read me like an open book and it's hard to hide anything form her. When I was young and fooling around with other guys she figured that out and warned me that its not healthy and I should concentrate on things that were worthwhile. She has always been very proud of me and has realized that I am mature enough to make my decisions now and when I introduced her to my first boyfriend they both got along like a forest on fire. She called him home whenever she cooked his favorite dishes and he'd help her and learn from her. Festivals were another time when her support and acceptance of our relationship would make things much more complete and enjoyable. When I broke up with Mr Big she kind of blamed me for it and wanted us to get together but with time she understood that I had taken the right decision. She always know when I get into a new relationship and I fail to understood how she figures it out.

But of late I am in a situation where I feel I may have to leave her and dad and relocate to some place else. Though nothing is finalized as of now but there is something in the pipeline. She has been supportive about this decision of mine too while dad hasn't, as always. But I am concerned that with all the distance I may not be able to be there for her when she really needs me. Her health has been falling of late and 2 cardiac arrests in the past 3 years has got me worried. Just this week she has had a bout of flu and felt very weak. So much so that yesterday she didn't even have the strength to wash her hair. So I got some water into her room and washed her like they do in the salons. It got me thinking that this is the person who washed me, cleaned me and looked after me when I was a child and now when she needs me am I running away from my duties? I had ignored her needs once before at the time of her 1st cardiac arrest and I hold myself responsible for it.
The only conclusion that I came upon in the end was to play my part shower her with all my love while we are together and wait for what path does God take me from here. I know for sure that she would be the happiest when she knows that I am at a point in life where I am doing something I have always wanted to and something that makes me happy and complete.

The song is Mama by Il Divo. I had heard the song before but this is the first time I have seen the video and it left me all teary eyed.

Video Credit: Andrehoang