Sour grapes syndrome
I don't feel very good tonight. I was speaking with Calvin over the phone and we somehow discovered he kinda knew an ex of mine. This ex is not someone I had a real relationship with, it was only physical. When we started to talk about the ex I passed a comment about him and his present present boyfriend which was completely unwarranted and rude. In the flow of the moment I usually end up doing such things where I'd pass a comment and opinion without thinking it over and after that I'd feel shallow and bitchy. I think it was a case of sour grapes syndrome. I know that my ex is happy with his boyfriend and I am still wallowing in my loneliness and wretchedness and maybe that is what got out the ugly side in me to the forefront.
I have got into trouble earlier too for having a very strong opinion about certain things and people. I guess I need to have some control over my mouth and need to realize when I need to shut up. I have always tried to run away from the representation of gay men in the media and I always think I am not that person. Maybe I am being too hard on myself it was meant in jest but I still feel guilty and there is no one I can apologize to!?
I have got into trouble earlier too for having a very strong opinion about certain things and people. I guess I need to have some control over my mouth and need to realize when I need to shut up. I have always tried to run away from the representation of gay men in the media and I always think I am not that person. Maybe I am being too hard on myself it was meant in jest but I still feel guilty and there is no one I can apologize to!?
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2 comments:
Dear Wandering Dervish, We all say and do things that after the event we are not very proud of. However, there is usually 2 sides to every person. I know for sure what a kind and generous individual the Dervish can be. But lets face it, when it comes to the subject of ex's, I dont think that many people are going to judge you for a bit of 'Sour Grapes'. Let's face it, some of the these guys have broken our hearts! Our responses are part of our 'passion' and it takes quite a while for healing to occur and hopefully some sort of resolution(if ever). There is no need to apologise for letting off a bit of 'Steam'.
Thanks Mr Hyde you always know what to say to brighten up my day.
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