Monogamy and pashing
Monogamy in a relationship is very important to me. I think it's got to do with certain episodes from my childhood that when I am in a relationship I can't have Him running around with other people.
That is the reason I am scared to get into a relationship because though I desire monogamy I am easily bored in a relationship and when my eye starts to wander my guilt forces me to break up with the person I am with. The last relationship I was in was with Mr Oz and in the past few weeks we had got in touch once again. I realized that the distance coupled with the episodes in Bali and his indifference thereafter kinda washed away the feeling I had for him. But I still tried to keep it going because it wasn't hurting anyone.
For the past week or so I have been meeting someone and there has been some harmless pashing. That left me feeling guilty and to add to it when I saw my phone there was a mushy message from Mr Oz. I just wrote him a mail telling him everything and hoping that we could still keep in touch and try to be friends.
It's after a very long time that I am with someone just because I enjoy his company and because there aren't any strings attached. It's a very organic and open setup where the expectations are bare minimum and hence no scope for any kind of misunderstandings or arguments.
Picture Credit : Josemanchado
That is the reason I am scared to get into a relationship because though I desire monogamy I am easily bored in a relationship and when my eye starts to wander my guilt forces me to break up with the person I am with. The last relationship I was in was with Mr Oz and in the past few weeks we had got in touch once again. I realized that the distance coupled with the episodes in Bali and his indifference thereafter kinda washed away the feeling I had for him. But I still tried to keep it going because it wasn't hurting anyone.
For the past week or so I have been meeting someone and there has been some harmless pashing. That left me feeling guilty and to add to it when I saw my phone there was a mushy message from Mr Oz. I just wrote him a mail telling him everything and hoping that we could still keep in touch and try to be friends.
It's after a very long time that I am with someone just because I enjoy his company and because there aren't any strings attached. It's a very organic and open setup where the expectations are bare minimum and hence no scope for any kind of misunderstandings or arguments.
Picture Credit : Josemanchado
2 comments:
Not sure if my last comment went through...dodgy internet! hope you are coming to Oz soon!
Yup the last comment didn't come thru JB! Well the visa is done but I had to deffer the course and now some mix up at the institute and PRISMS!!?!!
It's killing me!
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