Tuesday, 25 December 2007

Countdown

Picture Credit : Kate1212


Yesterday night I went for a wedding reception. If you haven't been to a Punjabi wedding you would never know what it's like. It's loud everyone is high for some strange reason, just one big mess!! I have never been comfortable with attending weddings I find it quite an ordeal to sit through one. I would rather slip out after the first 10 minutes. Well anyways I survived!!
It's going to be very busy now for the next few weeks. There are all the holidays and then my birthday. Once I get over with that it would almost be time for me to leave for Sydney. Finally it seems like the countdown to the D day has started and there is still so much to do before I leave. I still have not been able to find a place to live in once I arrive and I haven't been able to get my head around what to pack and what to leave behind.
One thing I would surely want to leave behind is the tons of emotional baggage that I have been carrying around all this time. I also would want to rediscover myself and try to wash off all the conditioning of the years gone by. I still feel I wear my heart on m sleeve and that once I have been hurt I find it very hard to give people a second chance. I just build these walls around my heart on the first instance of someone failing my 'tests'. I think it's because of me having given one chance too many to the last person who broke my heart into a zillion pieces. Since him I have met some really nice people but the moment I start to see a reflection of 'that person' in them I start to act distant. Well I hope this realization would help me make some much needed resolution for the year to come and open myself to new experiences and new people.

2 comments:

Single Guy said...

wow..how exciting! the countdown begins!!!

Dervish said...

Well things are surely heating up here. It's finally beginning to sink in...