Countdown
Yesterday night I went for a wedding reception. If you haven't been to a Punjabi wedding you would never know what it's like. It's loud everyone is high for some strange reason, just one big mess!! I have never been comfortable with attending weddings I find it quite an ordeal to sit through one. I would rather slip out after the first 10 minutes. Well anyways I survived!!
It's going to be very busy now for the next few weeks. There are all the holidays and then my birthday. Once I get over with that it would almost be time for me to leave for Sydney. Finally it seems like the countdown to the D day has started and there is still so much to do before I leave. I still have not been able to find a place to live in once I arrive and I haven't been able to get my head around what to pack and what to leave behind.
One thing I would surely want to leave behind is the tons of emotional baggage that I have been carrying around all this time. I also would want to rediscover myself and try to wash off all the conditioning of the years gone by. I still feel I wear my heart on m sleeve and that once I have been hurt I find it very hard to give people a second chance. I just build these walls around my heart on the first instance of someone failing my 'tests'. I think it's because of me having given one chance too many to the last person who broke my heart into a zillion pieces. Since him I have met some really nice people but the moment I start to see a reflection of 'that person' in them I start to act distant. Well I hope this realization would help me make some much needed resolution for the year to come and open myself to new experiences and new people.
It's going to be very busy now for the next few weeks. There are all the holidays and then my birthday. Once I get over with that it would almost be time for me to leave for Sydney. Finally it seems like the countdown to the D day has started and there is still so much to do before I leave. I still have not been able to find a place to live in once I arrive and I haven't been able to get my head around what to pack and what to leave behind.
One thing I would surely want to leave behind is the tons of emotional baggage that I have been carrying around all this time. I also would want to rediscover myself and try to wash off all the conditioning of the years gone by. I still feel I wear my heart on m sleeve and that once I have been hurt I find it very hard to give people a second chance. I just build these walls around my heart on the first instance of someone failing my 'tests'. I think it's because of me having given one chance too many to the last person who broke my heart into a zillion pieces. Since him I have met some really nice people but the moment I start to see a reflection of 'that person' in them I start to act distant. Well I hope this realization would help me make some much needed resolution for the year to come and open myself to new experiences and new people.
2 comments:
wow..how exciting! the countdown begins!!!
Well things are surely heating up here. It's finally beginning to sink in...
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