A drive is in order
I hate it when I am insecure but that is one thing that keeps haunting me from my childhood. I have been so trying to blend into the background all my life that when I am noticed it is more than flattering. But when I feel that the appreciation starts to wash away or I have to share it with someone else it sends me back into my shell and then all I want to do is run away. I would want to think that with time I have been able to learn the art of camouflaging my emotions but I think I suck at it and most people can see right through me.
It is when I feel that my vulnerability is so very obvious that I start to feel pathetic and depressed. I am glad that tomorrow I can get away from all and get a fresh perspective at life and everything else with a drive to the hills. There is nothing like a drive to the hills to clear your mind with all the fresh air and the chill usually numbs all the pain!!!
I hadn't even finished writing this post and I got a call from my closest friend and we have decided to go out for coffee. There is a lot to talk about with him as he is just got out of a very long relationship with someone he was planning to get married. His parents didn't agree to the relationship and now he is engaged to someone else. Who said life for straight blokes was easy. I hope his problems can help me realize how inconsequential the ramblings going around in my head are....
It is when I feel that my vulnerability is so very obvious that I start to feel pathetic and depressed. I am glad that tomorrow I can get away from all and get a fresh perspective at life and everything else with a drive to the hills. There is nothing like a drive to the hills to clear your mind with all the fresh air and the chill usually numbs all the pain!!!
I hadn't even finished writing this post and I got a call from my closest friend and we have decided to go out for coffee. There is a lot to talk about with him as he is just got out of a very long relationship with someone he was planning to get married. His parents didn't agree to the relationship and now he is engaged to someone else. Who said life for straight blokes was easy. I hope his problems can help me realize how inconsequential the ramblings going around in my head are....
3 comments:
hey there :) bumped into yer blog, and its sweet :) kinda fun to read de blog of a desi who's gettin ready to leave home. lol. i'm in de US midwest, lost li'l bombay boi. :) have fun in sydney.
WD:
try "closest" friend not closets friend as it sounds somewhat quite different
Regards
Harry
Thanks for your comments closetalk!! I have my fingers crossed hope all works out for the best ;-)
Thanks Harry!! That is what I had meant to write but in the hurry to see my friend I didn't re-read the post to check for spelling errors ;-)
Hope this time away from Mr Hyde has not been very difficult and that you enjoyed your getaway to T.F!!
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