Emotions
I have spend the entire day today doing nothing much other than trying to configure the new Macbook. In a way it was good because it kept my mind off everything else happening around me. I wanted to give both Jughead and Hobbes some time and space so that all we could all look at things from another perspective.
The last few times I spoke to Jughead it seemed like that there was something that was bothering him and if that is truly the case I don't want to desert him but at the same time I have asked him a few times and he has decided to keep his cards close to his chest and all I am doing is respecting his privacy.
Hobbes has been the complete opposite. Inspite of my not so graceful behavior in the past few days he has always taken the initiative to keep in touch and meet. Even when we meet he observes that I am trying to act distant but he's always been at his best behavior. I don't like the place I am in and I want things to be back to normal and my way of going about it is to let fate take it's course.
It's strange how life was pretty ordinary and routine before all these people came into my life and now that they are here it's all complicated and stressful. Why can't relationships be easy? When we are lonely we are looking to find someone to share the special moments with and when they do come into our life the come with their own baggage and complexities and at times we are not in the frame of mind to understand the other person and the easiest way is to just walk away.
I am trying to walk away but these acquaintances of a few days are proving to be a tough call. I thought I was pretty much in control of my emotions but the last few days have proved that there is a lot of work to be done in this regards.
The last few times I spoke to Jughead it seemed like that there was something that was bothering him and if that is truly the case I don't want to desert him but at the same time I have asked him a few times and he has decided to keep his cards close to his chest and all I am doing is respecting his privacy.
Hobbes has been the complete opposite. Inspite of my not so graceful behavior in the past few days he has always taken the initiative to keep in touch and meet. Even when we meet he observes that I am trying to act distant but he's always been at his best behavior. I don't like the place I am in and I want things to be back to normal and my way of going about it is to let fate take it's course.
It's strange how life was pretty ordinary and routine before all these people came into my life and now that they are here it's all complicated and stressful. Why can't relationships be easy? When we are lonely we are looking to find someone to share the special moments with and when they do come into our life the come with their own baggage and complexities and at times we are not in the frame of mind to understand the other person and the easiest way is to just walk away.
I am trying to walk away but these acquaintances of a few days are proving to be a tough call. I thought I was pretty much in control of my emotions but the last few days have proved that there is a lot of work to be done in this regards.
3 comments:
Saying goodbye is so hard to do...you have to feel it...as much as it is going to hurt.
Hi Wandering Dervish, I have been doing my homework and catching up with the complex web of intrigues in Chandigarh. Mr Hyde is back home from foreign climes and looking forward to the Australian chapter of your life beginning. Many adventures ahead for all of us in 2008.
Thanks JB and Mr Hyde for your encouraging words. I guess I need to count my blessings and move on to the adventures coming my way in 2008 ;-)
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