It never rains but it pours
I know I haven't been blogging as much as I have in the past but I have some very good reasons for it. At last my social life is looking up. After being stuck in the doldrums for quite some time I feel my stars have begun to rise. I have met a few new friends who are all gay and that is very refreshing for a gay guy living a solitary existence in small town Chandigarh.
To start with I met Calvin who discovered me through this blog and then it was Hobbes who I had spoken to about 7 years ago and never met. Hobbes and I got along very well and started to spend a lot of time together watching movies in the theater, eating out every other day or just lazing around at home listening to music. And then Hobbes ex Jughead came in to picture. Jughead has spend the last few years of his life in Canada and only recently moved to Sydney. Hobbes wanted me to meet Jughead so that I'd have a point of contact in Sydney. I was a but apprehensive and after delaying the meeting for a while I finally met him on the 6th. Jughead and me share the same birth date and we have been in similar sorta relationships in the past. So we had a few things to talk about.
But I think Hobbes is not taking all this too well. Maybe it's because of the little action that has happened between us in the past few weeks or its because of his history with Jughead but it makes me feel like the bitch. I have started to observe this undercurrent of tension between Hobbes and Jughead and I feel guilty about it all. I feel things screwed up because of me and I am trying my best to clear the air and get them both to square one.
There are times when I feel that the best thing is to withdraw myself from the situation and that way they may be able to mend whatever damage has been done. I don't want to be in the situation where I feel guilty of speaking to one and ignoring the other. I just wish that things weren't so complicated and human emotions not so fickle!
To start with I met Calvin who discovered me through this blog and then it was Hobbes who I had spoken to about 7 years ago and never met. Hobbes and I got along very well and started to spend a lot of time together watching movies in the theater, eating out every other day or just lazing around at home listening to music. And then Hobbes ex Jughead came in to picture. Jughead has spend the last few years of his life in Canada and only recently moved to Sydney. Hobbes wanted me to meet Jughead so that I'd have a point of contact in Sydney. I was a but apprehensive and after delaying the meeting for a while I finally met him on the 6th. Jughead and me share the same birth date and we have been in similar sorta relationships in the past. So we had a few things to talk about.
But I think Hobbes is not taking all this too well. Maybe it's because of the little action that has happened between us in the past few weeks or its because of his history with Jughead but it makes me feel like the bitch. I have started to observe this undercurrent of tension between Hobbes and Jughead and I feel guilty about it all. I feel things screwed up because of me and I am trying my best to clear the air and get them both to square one.
There are times when I feel that the best thing is to withdraw myself from the situation and that way they may be able to mend whatever damage has been done. I don't want to be in the situation where I feel guilty of speaking to one and ignoring the other. I just wish that things weren't so complicated and human emotions not so fickle!
3 comments:
Hi - I've recently started reading your interesting blog...and it's all good mate!
Not sure if you have looked up...www.flatmates.com.au.....may help with your house hunting process.
It's a very tight rental market currently here in Sydney.
Good luck!
I was also recommeded to try gumtree.com.au - this is quite a useful site if you are looking for property and a job!
Thanks Gaykarma and Sy.
I did look up gumtree and I would give flatmates a go too.
Thanks for appreciating the blog!!
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