Am I dying?
Day before yesterday I was about to retire to bed and I was brushing my teeth and flossing when I noticed on the inside of my cheek 2 moles. I had read a few months ago how certain moles can be early symptoms of cancer and that had me worried. I went online and did a bit of research to discover that it was true. I went back to bed but couldn't sleep a wink. My mind was working overtime and I was imagining how things would change if it indeed was oral cancer!! If I begin to write about all that went on in my head would have you rolling on the floor. Unable to sleep I went online once again and this time saw some pictures of what malignant melanoma looks like and that kinda subdued my emotions for a while.
Yesterday was a rather busy day and I had no time of thinking about cancer or anything else. I spoke to mum about it casually and we laughed about it though I was still doubtful. And then last night while I was brushing I noticed that the mole was washed away with the mouthwash. It was a blood clot formed by my bleeding gum. So I kinda briefly examined my past, present and future with respect to me being diagnosed with a fatal diseases that wasn't. Now I can look back on all of it and smile!!
Today was spent catching up with friends and telling them that I am leaving on the 18th. The ball was set rolling when a friend who had once interviewed me for a radio show rang me up. SK had discovered me thorough this blog and we had spoken a few times and today he called to wish me a belated birthday and luck for the fast approaching adventurous journey. We spoke a little about other things like what he does for a living. Which was rather interesting and something he is passionate about. It gives me hope to continue on the path that would lead me closer to me following my passion in life.
Later I spoke to a few more friends saying my goodbyes and catching up with them and in the process of it all realizing how important this step of my life is what all would I be leaving behind once I board the plane on the 18th. By the end of it I hope it is all worth it and I am looking forward to face all that is going to be coming my way soon....
Yesterday was a rather busy day and I had no time of thinking about cancer or anything else. I spoke to mum about it casually and we laughed about it though I was still doubtful. And then last night while I was brushing I noticed that the mole was washed away with the mouthwash. It was a blood clot formed by my bleeding gum. So I kinda briefly examined my past, present and future with respect to me being diagnosed with a fatal diseases that wasn't. Now I can look back on all of it and smile!!
Today was spent catching up with friends and telling them that I am leaving on the 18th. The ball was set rolling when a friend who had once interviewed me for a radio show rang me up. SK had discovered me thorough this blog and we had spoken a few times and today he called to wish me a belated birthday and luck for the fast approaching adventurous journey. We spoke a little about other things like what he does for a living. Which was rather interesting and something he is passionate about. It gives me hope to continue on the path that would lead me closer to me following my passion in life.
Later I spoke to a few more friends saying my goodbyes and catching up with them and in the process of it all realizing how important this step of my life is what all would I be leaving behind once I board the plane on the 18th. By the end of it I hope it is all worth it and I am looking forward to face all that is going to be coming my way soon....
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