Wake up
I have finally given up on trying to find a place to share in Sydney while I am in India and am going to book a hostel like Wake Up instead as recommended by fellow blogger Sy. This whole process of finding a room has been very cumbersome and is giving me sleepless night and so I decided to take an alternative route instead.
Other than apartment hunting nothing much has happened in the past few days. I met a few friends to say my final goodbyes. I am back to being all alone and lonely and very soon in a foreign country without friends and family. It leaves me with a blank piece of paper to start life anew. I though that I had a few acquaintances in Sydney but I guess it was just s fleeing moment of hope and now I am back to exploring things all by myself. In a strange way I find the current position I am in somewhat comforting. I have traveled alone earlier and it gives me this sense of freedom and I like to explore things on my own and in the process meeting new people and forming new friendships and relationships.
Another thing that I have observed is that I am more comfortable having straight friends especially fag hags. Most of the friendships that I recently formed with people who are gay have either turned sour or just become stagnant. Maybe I am to blme but that kinda thing is not so common with my straight friends.
Well all this just maybe because of the weird state of mind I am in and now I am going to sign off before I bore you with anymore of my senseless ramblings!!
Other than apartment hunting nothing much has happened in the past few days. I met a few friends to say my final goodbyes. I am back to being all alone and lonely and very soon in a foreign country without friends and family. It leaves me with a blank piece of paper to start life anew. I though that I had a few acquaintances in Sydney but I guess it was just s fleeing moment of hope and now I am back to exploring things all by myself. In a strange way I find the current position I am in somewhat comforting. I have traveled alone earlier and it gives me this sense of freedom and I like to explore things on my own and in the process meeting new people and forming new friendships and relationships.
Another thing that I have observed is that I am more comfortable having straight friends especially fag hags. Most of the friendships that I recently formed with people who are gay have either turned sour or just become stagnant. Maybe I am to blme but that kinda thing is not so common with my straight friends.
Well all this just maybe because of the weird state of mind I am in and now I am going to sign off before I bore you with anymore of my senseless ramblings!!
3 comments:
Dear Sunshine, It may be a big continent, but you will not be alone here. Australia is like an old earth mother. An old ancient land, that will take you in it's arms and will allow you to follow your desires and dreams. Many thousands have come here before you and have started a new life. You will soon be here and the year will sure to have its moments , but day by day you will make you place in Australia. I have sent something to you!
Isn't Mr H sweet. Now only if you were studying in his city I am sure that a spare bedroom could be found.
You are not coming here to die WD nor are you moving here permanently. Remind yourself that nothing is permanent and if you don't like the place then you can go home. I say this in the hope that if you change your thinking you might then be able to enjoy the experience. It is also an opportunity that not many people get to have. You are in a privileged position. I've never studied overseas nor have any of my friends.
Once you get here, you will without a doubt meet people in a similar position to yourself. You may want to look with them for a place to live.
It will work out. I've never seen an overseas student who has been left to sit in a corner alone. It's like backpacking.
Now try and relax and get some sleep. Repeat this, "everything is going to be OK!" Take care.
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